It is 4:00 p.m. Today has been very hard. Everytime I look at my dad he is getting worse and worse. This afternoon he got very confused and beligerent. He thought we were all on a train and it was 1949. He needed to know what year the quarters were on the railroad tracks. He has not been making any sense which has been very scary to watch. Hospice called in an order for larazapam, and hopefully that will calm him down. They said this is the normal dying process, and sometimes the pain makes them get mean. The nurse will be here at 5, then I will update again.