Well even though my mom has a new set of stresses - I am very happy to see her back to herself. Her job was taking such a toll on her mind and health, it is nice to see her back to normal. She is still searching for jobs, so please keep her in mind if you know of anything.

This past Sunday would have been my parents 35th wedding anniversary. I bought my mom roses. It was a promise I made to my dad before he died. He was such a romantic, I wanted to assure him I would still buy flowers for my mom.

Next week Wednesday would be Nevaeh's 5th birthday. I can't beleive she would be 5 already. Somtimes that part of my life seems like it was just a dream....

In honor of her birthday I want to do something special. I found an organization that gives angel memory boxes and NICU care packages to parents in the Madison area. It's really cool. I would love to do something like that in Nevaeh's honor. I just don't know how to get started. But in the meantime I think I plan on donating some items that they use in the packages and memory boxes. They have a very neat website if you want to check them out:

http://mikaylasgraceblog.blogspot.com/p/angel-memory-boxes.html

Ok, so my mom got fired from her job yesterday after 22 years at Humana. I can honestly say - I've never wanted to go a hunt someone down and punch them in the face, as much as I did to my mom's former boss yesterday. I am better than that though. Instead I will use my words. I plan on sending her boss' an e-mail thanking them for treating her with such a lack of empathy and compassion the entire time my dad was dying.

I know in the long run, my mom is going to be so much happier without this job. She will be under way less stress. She'll new stress with money and no insurance, but I think she will be happier in the long run.

Please say some prayers for my mom that the right opportunity comes her way. I hate that she has had to go through so much pain and stress the last 18 months.

Well my mom got let go from her job today after 22 years. Please say some prayers for her.

I've been having a really tough time missing my dad lately. Not sure why. It was strange, yesterday was Mother's day, but I was really missing my dad.

I visited my grandparents on Saturday...that is always so hard. I look at my grandpa, and I see so much of my dad. Everywhere I look there are family pictures with my dad in them. I know I need to get over that, because my dad would want me to visit them more, but it is just really painful. I ended up bawling on my way out. I feel so bad, because I know my grandparents like to see me - probably for the very same reason it is hard for me to see them - I remind them of my dad. I know they probably feel like they get to see a peice of him by seeing me....and it's kind of the same way for me when seeing them. But for me instead of it being comforting, it just hurts really bad.

Please say some extra prayers for my mom. She's going through a particular rough patch right now. Her employer was not so nice to her when my dad was dying, and that continues to be the case. I feel so bad for her, and so helpless. Everyhing she has been through the last year, it's no fair. I know she is a strong woman, and god only gives a person as much as they can handle, but this is getting to be so much. I am very worried about her. I pray day and night for her to find a new job. She just needs a fresh start. At a place that will have compassion and sympathy. I find it very pathetic that an employer would treat an employee that has been with a company for 22 years with such a lack of empathy or compassion after loosing a loved one.