Well I've had my first breakdown, and several after. This week has been very tough. And not just for me. I know my mom and Mandy are having rough weeks also. I think it is finally setting in. I think I am finally realizing what an angel on earth my dad really was. He gave us so many gifts and life lessons. I miss him so much. I miss his smile, and his laugh, and his voice on the phone. I just wish there was a pill you could take to make the hurt go away. Sometimes my heart feels like it is literally breaking.