I've been having a really tough time missing my dad lately. Not sure why. It was strange, yesterday was Mother's day, but I was really missing my dad.

I visited my grandparents on Saturday...that is always so hard. I look at my grandpa, and I see so much of my dad. Everywhere I look there are family pictures with my dad in them. I know I need to get over that, because my dad would want me to visit them more, but it is just really painful. I ended up bawling on my way out. I feel so bad, because I know my grandparents like to see me - probably for the very same reason it is hard for me to see them - I remind them of my dad. I know they probably feel like they get to see a peice of him by seeing me....and it's kind of the same way for me when seeing them. But for me instead of it being comforting, it just hurts really bad.