McKenna and Macey Cuddling

Ear Tubes

McKenna had surgery to put tubes in her ears this morning. It went wonderful, she was so brave. It took a little coaxing and creativity to get her to let them take her blood pressure and put the oximeter on her finger. Then we had to wait a half an hour for the surgeon to arrive. Thank god there was a television in our room, and Dora the Explorer was on.

When it was time for them to take her to surgery, I carried her, and when we got to the OR, the nurse took her from me. McKenna was fine, no crying at all. They said in the OR she did very good, and didn't cry or fight with them to put the mask on at all.

When she woke up in the recovery room, she was pretty upset. They said the anasthesia can make them emotional. She kept asking for Dora, which I think is pretty funny. She is obviously obsessed with Dora!

They brought us to the room, and Dora was on, so her world was all good again. They said she would be a little drowsy the rest of the day, and so far she is not. She is full of energy and her normal self!

Macey began smiling and cooing this week when she sees me. It is so much fun!!

December Fun

Santa Claus

Here is a cute picture of Macey and Santa. McKenna didn't like Santa, and wouldn't get within 10 feet of him! She has declared all week "I don't like Santa". I tell her that is okay, Santa likes you and will still bring you presents.

Maternity Leave

Well I have less then a month of leave left. It makes me sad because the first 3 weeks after I had Macey I had postpartum depression so bad, I couldn't enjoy her and the excitment of having a new baby. I just cried all the time and was so overwhelmed. Poor Jason, I think he thought that I was loosing it!

I got put on Zoloft, and what a big difference. It is like a curtain has been lifted, and I can enjoy my family again. I feel like I am only really getting to know Macey right now. Postpartum depression really stinks. It makes you feel extremly guilty, because you know you should be happy about this new healthy baby, but you just can't be. And that makes you feel even worse!

I am so HAPPY to have Macey and McKenna in my life!!

Sad

Today I am sad. Me and my mom had a very difficult conversation this morning about my dad and what will happen after he passes away. It is very hard to have to think of all of the things you need to think about. But we also have to be very realistic. My heart just breaks for my mom when I think of everything she faces when the time does come. I don't know if she'll be able to keep the house and land, and that makes me the most sad. That was my dad's dream property, and his pride and joy. It hurts me to think that she may have to sell it.

My dad did gain 2 pounds yesterday, but he has been taking more morphine lately, which means he is in more pain, which usually means the tumors are growing. I just pray and pray each and every day for a miracle, but I know deep down it is probably not going to happen. I need to start to prepare myself for the worse.